Having a quandary today.

Well, with the madness out of the way, things are now settling down nicely. Seizures are still out of control so that reassures me that some things in life go on as normal!

So, as my previous posts have said, it has been a crazy few months for me. Long lost family, house moving, marriage, the full works. I hate to use the C word (Christmas, not the BIG C) so early, but with Joshua’s birthday coming up and that sorted, and presents for the big C sorted I am finally starting to settle into a rhythm.

Joshua is going to be 20 in less than 2 weeks so he is not paying his housekeeping for this month as he wanted money anyway, so it seemed silly for him to give it to me in one hand and me to hand it back. He has told us that he can’t afford anything for anyone for C, so fair play, he is giving nothing and expects nothing in return.

Leigh will probably want money, which is fine as all the children know what our rough budget is for each of them. Elizabeth wants a coffee maker for her bedroom and Myles wants a Kindle Fire and some money towards buying some new clothes so all sorted there. Money is put aside and we are good to go.

Bert and I don’t buy each other anything as we would rather spend the money on the children BUT we did indulge ourselves recently. As we both have birthdays in October as well as getting married in the same month we bought ourselves a 40″ TV that was on special offer


Yep, we bought ourselves this bad boy for the bedroom. We didn’t pay that amount for it, it was £50 less plus we had a £10 discount voucher for the store that was applicable for electrical items which is unusual where I am from. It has pride of place alongside the new 500GB PS3 that we got with the money that people gave to us for the wedding (we did very well considering we specifically asked for NO gifts!). Please don’t think for one minute we are ungrateful, quite the opposite as we were very surprised to receive anything at all!

The quandary is that as I spend an inordinate amount of time in bed due to ill health, and Bert has so much to do I get lonely. He is an absolute superstar and if I ask for some time with him, he is more than accommodating but running a house of 6, with a disabled wife does take up a lot of his time.

I want a pet. Something I can have in the bedroom for company. Not just any pet mind, I do have certain criteria that have to be met.

1 – It has to be diurnal or crepuscular, there is no way I am going to be able to fight my corner asking for a pet that is going to keep us awake all night partying on down!

2 – Not a furry little being. I have nothing against them per se, but just not what I am looking for.

3- SMELL! Nothing that is going to emit anything too malodourous otherwise I can totally forget it!

4 – A companion that can be handled and perhaps tamed to a degree.

5 – Something that can be looked after very easily if I end up in hospital for a stretch. I think this is going to be the biggest sticking point as I can’t expect Bert to take on the responsibility of something else as well as everything that he does on a daily basis.

Now, I have been doing my research, and am looking at after C to be getting such a pet if Bert is amenable and have got it narrowed down to 2 that I am drawn to the most.

First up, a small bearded dragon http://www.petsathome.com/shop/small-bearded-dragon-18523. I have priced up the cost of the reptile, PROPER housing of an appropriate size, food, how often live food would need to be given, how often the vivarium would need to be changed and the cost of running it electricity wise. Also included, vivarium furniture, vets bills should they be needed etc. I am not going into this with my eyes shut which is why I think going after C being the best time to get a pet. It isn’t going to be an impulse purchase as small bearded dragons can live up to 10 years.

Secondly, I would like to introduce you to my personal favourite, a corn snake http://www.petsathome.com/shop/corn-snake-85357. Now this I think is NOT going to be the popular choice with Bert. Again, I have priced up all the appropriate housing, vivarium needs, costs of furniture and feeding. Personally the corn snake would be easier for me to feed, as their food can be bought in bulk frozen and they don’t need feeding every day. I have a friend who has one and once settled in, they love being handled and are quite characters. I think I am going to have to fight my corner quite seriously on this corner!

You will have to excuse my poor use of links, I am still learning and as a Safari user have just found out I would probably be better using a different browser to get hyperlinks inserted in a more user friendly fashion!

Browser issues aside, I am definitely wanting the corn snake, but as in any marriage, a compromise will be made if that is what is needed.

In other news, seizure wise I have had an awful few days. Normally I can ‘sort’ of predict that anytime after 6pm is my danger zone. Well, that has gone right out of the window recently. I have been fitting in my sleep (for any epileptic, there is a huge difference between fitting when awake and asleep), first thing in the morning, you name it. I went into status epilepticus the other night and Bert was literally 1 minute off calling the emergency services which hasn’t happened in a very long time.

That particular episode scared me. I am an RNLD as I have stated before so I know the repercussions on the old grey matter of being in seizure activity for over 40 minutes but from the other side of it, I can only describe it as I knew I was lost and couldn’t find my way home. No pictures, just a sensation which took me to borderline panic but I couldn’t move or tell anyone. I had no idea I was seizing at the time either which was a new one on me. Scared? You betcha!!

And just to add insult to injury, I saw my Neurologist on the 1st of this month. My next appointment is on the 13 of October next year. yes, that is correct, NEXT year. She is more than happy to keep me like I am until then. To be honest I don’t know how much more I can take of it all. Oh crap, here comes the pity party!! Let’s throw that out the window before it starts!!!

I *had* planned on going to Iceland for my 40th birthday next year but the likelihood of that is not looking good, so maybe my vote for a corn snake might just have some ‘oomph’ to it, fingers crossed!

Anyway, Bert has just informed me that my tea is nearly ready via my lifeline (ie, the baby monitor) so I shall sign off for now. I just want to thank those of you that are following me, it is appreciated. I am going to, fits be damned, get a new browser installed tomorrow, sort out hyperlinks properly as there is tons of stuff I would love to share and really make the effort to get into the WordPress community and reciprocate some of the kind words I have had. Yes, that is my plan for tomorrow!

Tea is actually here so for now, I shall say good night,


PS – Safari has to go! Just previewed and I need to work on these hyperlinks! Sorry if anyone is interested enough and has to copy and paste into a browser – end user issues will be cleared up this end tomorrow!!


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